UGGGHHGGHHHG! I'm SOOOOOO DONE!!!!

Relationships are hard. Even the best of relationships are difficult. I am not just speaking of significant others but all kinds of relationships from a spousal one to one with a stranger. We are all different and we think different and we act different and it can cause such dissention. There are hurts, those hurts can lie deep. There is disappointment which can cause distrust.  There are a multitude of feelings that can cause separation; or the lack of a desire to be loving and compassionate.

Positive thinking and attitudes are all wonderful in concept but truthfully where there are wounds, comes a lack of patience, sometimes a feeling of disdain and sometimes, hate.  Being told to “brush it off”, “move forward” or whatever other cliché’s we are told to do is not realistic.

HOW??? How then do we concede to JESUS’ words to be patient with one another.  Esphesians 4:2, says Be completely humble and gentle; be patient and bearing with one another in love. WE RELY ON GOD! WE FILL UP WITH HIS WORD!

Did you see the word “completely”? This does not say when we are in agreement with one another or when we receive good feelings from one another. It tells us we need to bear with one another in love. GOD is love. Feeling what we feel is inevitable. Acting on what we feel is a different thing.

 Thank the LORD, HE forgives, because even as I write this, I can tell you so many incidences just in the last 48 hours where my patience and lack of humility and gentleness came roaring to the front. Even leaving a Joel Osteen event in Philadelphia, I found myself cursing the other drivers around me.

We are not perfect and never will be. We are in a world we are really not a part of. We belong to JESUS. And HE gives us direction so that we live in peace and joy while we are here however HE knows we will fail. And we repent and sin no more. And cry to HIM to fill us with what we lack.

I lack patience in a big way today. I know that there was a quiet moment when I was sitting on my bed, crying and praying and in my heart, I heard “Be patient with one another”. I can tell you I have heard that before but I did not know where in the bible it was. SO I looked and there it was in Esphesians 4:2. LOUD AND CLEAR!!

I have heard that when you are at your weakest point, that is when you sometimes hear JESUS the loudest. I know for me this is probably more often than not. I can get in my own way so often and make bigger messes than a child in mud. HOWEVER, GOD always picks me up, brushes me off, kisses my forehead, corrects me and gently pushes me on my way. HE STILL LOVES ME! That is clearly a love like no other.

PRAYER:  HOLY SPIRIT, fill me and hold me to patience. LORD let me be more patience than yesterday and even more the next. I want to bear with all those around with YOUR LOVE. I know I need to lower my expectations and rest in YOUR hands. Please FATHER, let me LOVE with YOUR  heart and forgive my impatience. Thank YOU for YOUR  patience with me, YOUR  love for me and YOUR forgiveness when I drop the ball. AMEN! 

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