GOD is so good. Grace is getting what you do not deserve. At least that is how I see it. In the Book of Exodus, we see the Jews about to be handed the promised land yet instead of focusing on that, the focus was on what they did not have. So they moaned and groaned. I do that. I whine and bitch. I have a tendency to focus on the things I do not have, traits I lack or esthetic looks I do not possess instead of the gift of grace and all of the promises GOD does gives me on a daily basis. AND by GOD’s grace, as he brought the JEWS into their land, he continues to grow me, and provide me exactly what I need, when I need it.
I am a manager by nature. This I am finding is not so bad. There are good things in this. I can use this gift for GOD’s good. I just needed and continue to need to have GOD prune and teach me how to let go and LET HIM use me how HE needs me. I mess up, get my hands in the middle of junk and drama that I should not have HOWEVER, I now am open to learn and through GOD’s grace I am learning.
I recently heard an interpretation about the rod and the staff at a funeral. These tools are not meant to inflict pain but rather to protect, teach and defend. And we are GOD’s sheep and HE protects, teaches and defends us. And no matter how far we may stray from the flock, HE loves us so much that HE does what is necessary to bring us back.
There is such blessings in this. For someone like me who sometimes thinks the world is on her shoulders; it really is not. GOD with his rod and staff, IS IN CONTROL. And if I keep my eyes on HIM; things tend to fall into place and peace ensues. When I tend to look inside, and do things on my own; things become a mess and worry and anxiety consumes. I choose GOD and I thank GOD for the love and grace HE provides even when I run off by myself thinking “I got this”.