Patience – hearing that word literally makes me shake. It is one of the fruits of the SPIRIT. It is one of those that I have a hard time with. It is foreign to my very being. It means I have to wait, and often it means I have to wait and be still. These are two skills that are not in my vat of expertise. We are told to “Be still and know that I am GOD” and in 2 Thessalonians 1:4-5, the WORD speaks of perseverance and endurance and all while suffering. This is not my usual way of “dealing”.
Being still…. Well, this is extremely difficult for someone who usually is running all over “fixing things” and “fixing people”. This is me, this is what I do. Well, GOD does not think so. GOD wants me to STOP and be still!! Be patient. Do you hear that boom boom boom? That is my heart thumping at the thought of “being still”.
Moses was patient, David was patient, Jacob was patient and Abraham was patient. I guess we can assume that good things comes to those who are patient.
In the last several months I have been dealing with many issues at once. Business issues, spiritual issues and some personal items. EVERY single one of them required me to be patient. I fought it. I really did. My humanistic lack of patience and the ability to be still were instead having me wreak havoc and then my emotions over the fact that I was just messing things up more were overwhelming.
You know what was funny through all of this. I was reading the BIBLE and praying and saying thanks and worshipping. But do you know what I was NOT doing??? Being still!
BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD (Psalm 46:10) interesting enough in the New American Standard Bible it says “Cease striving and know that I am GOD”.
AHA! This is one of those big fat moments where you say (slap on the forehead like those in V8 commercials) ohhhh my… GOD has been there all the time screaming: BE STILL DENI, KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME, DO NOTHING! BE PATIENT!
I finally got it…. Today. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I was sitting in with the IRS auditor and my mind is going and I am chanting, OH GOD PLEASE…. Literally like a thousand times. And a small, still voice…. I heard, “just be still” and “keep your eyes on JESUS”.
And I FINALLY listened (thank GOD, that he is faithful to us) and relaxed. And just answered the questions as I could. And the other issues I am dealing with. I am being still. I am going to be still and know that GOD is the one who has got this! NOT ME, NOT MY MINISTER, NOT MY BOSS, NOT THE IRS, NOT MY FAMILY – JESUS! JESUS has got this. So, at 53, I am going to learn not to “jump the gun” “act quickly with a solution (haha) in every situation” “fix” or should I say “break” NOPE! I am going to hold onto the hand of JESUS and BE STILL and know that he has got this!!
I will wait and be patient and lean not on my own understanding.
I do thank YOU JESUS for this lesson. I have grown stronger in YOU and weaker to me. And there was a time I would have thought that meant I was weak but it is quite the opposite. I ask you JESUS that you continue to work in me and keep me patient and holding steadfast onto you in all things good and bad. I pray that anyone who is going through turbulent times to be still and know that YOU are GOD. In your wonderful, precious, beautiful name, AMEN! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!
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