I can be an emotional hoarder! Past hurts piling up to overflowing like an over-stuffed closet!
You know what happens when you keep filling a closet up beyond its capacity? It busts open, may even break.
What do you think happens when we do the same with our hurts? Or our sins? Yep! They break us!
Growing up where there was much importance placed on presenting a front to the neighbors; I learned quickly how to put on a mask. Even if I was hurting or being hurt, I just held on and it in.
This carried on through my later years. Eventually, I lost me in the shuffle. That is what happens when you pretend. It gets buried and stuffed in that emotional closet.
Something bad happened; put it in that closet- I hurt someone - yep, in the closet; someone hurt me; in the closet it went.... you get it..I heard recently how there are layers on an onion. And working through your past hurts, hang-ups and habits is like peeling the onion.
I realize that I have one big onion and a closet stuffed to the brim!
So that is where confession is needed. When I heard that word at first, I thought it meant sitting in a little box with a secret man sitting on the other side and you said those words "Father, forgive me for I have sinned"...
And it is true I do confess to my FATHER GOD, and we need to do that - it is also good to share it with a trusted friend of GOD! "Trust" is the key word! Don't just go around speaking it all over! That does nothing but provide juicy gossip and complaining.
Little by little I am seeing the real me emerge. It is like me saying "Deni, meet Deni". It is scary. It is even awkward at my age not really knowing the real me.
However, I have a strong and loving FATHER, who lets me know "Come on out child, you are safe now"!
Thank YOU JESUS ❤