Today, I felt like I was at the end of one of those automatic ball throwers ducking so as not to be hit by the darn balls. I sometimes, heck who am I fooling, I always tend to carry everyone’s problems on my shoulders. GOD must adore that, huh! What a humble tumble! That is what today was. It was a “get down off your high horse” kind of day. A day where I need to know I do not have all the answers. Yep, a humble tumble day.
The hardest learning point for me is humility. I want to be the one who has the answers, be the help, solver of the problems…. You can now get up off the floor laughing…
Would you like to know why I do this? Because I feel that if I can do and help:
I do more “rinsing and repeating” in my life and realize I battle with that. I know that the evil one keeps me there but I also realize I have a CHOICE! I CAN call on the one who sustains me, instead of playing GOD, I can call GOD. Because overall, I know GOD is the perfect solution and I am a “mess-maker” without HIM. And all this and GOD loves me anyway….. WOW!!!
I am an ego centric schmuck with a GOD complex and I am admitting it to all my 2 readers BUT when I realize it, I REPENT and it is gone, just like that. JESUS erases it!
Humility…. A hard one for me, GOD teaches me and LOVES me in spite.
2 Chronicles 7:14 says a mouthful, I need to repeat it EVERY moment…
If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.