Sometimes, I just HATE MYSELF?!?!?!?!

Uggghhhhh, I hate myself

How do you see yourself? So often I look at myself harshly; the physical, my personality and my heart. Sometimes I have a constant “bad hair day” and just see ugly all around. I think over and over about all I have done wrong. OR I look at myself because I gained a few pounds and I feel disgusted OR I hate the way I may look at another person. I just wish I could look at myself and others through the reflection of JESUS eyes.

There is a famous story in the bible about a woman who committed adultery. In biblical times, this apparently was much worse than it is today, because all of the town folk were there to stone her to death; literally throw stones at her body until she succumbed and dies. That is a horrible way to die I would imagine. It is tortuous. Nowadays, over half of the population could be stoned for that sin. Not only was that woman going to be physically tortured but she was shamed in front of everyone. Can you imagine how alone she felt? How scared? BUT, JESUS said to the crowd an amazing statement, HE said whomever that stands here waiting to throw the first or a stone that is without any sin, feel free, go for it. The crowd left. The woman was crouched down at JESUS feet and she did not move. I am not sure whether it was out of fear, shock or just that she felt that she deserved the stoning. JESUS said to her – you are forgiven, get up and sin no more.

HE did not say, You horrid woman, how could you do that?? We do this though… we judge ourselves, we judge others. We are quick to do it too. We are fast to cast that stone at ourselves and others. If we could see that GOD looks at us through loving and forgiving eyes. HE sees each one of us as stunningly beautiful, HE created us.

Mathew 10:30 – tells us that “every hair of your head are numbered…….

When we look at ourselves poorly, we are saying that GOD made us poorly. I challenge you that before you downgrade yourself, to think of that. And before you judge anyone, try praying for them instead. Sometimes we humans like to look at those “we” think do bad things and judge them harshly, usually because we are jealous, or we think we are better but I tell you no one is better in CHRIST.

So love yourself and love others because that is what we are commanded to do right after loving JESUS!

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