The façade, we all present it. The thing is GOD knows our heart. Even better, is HE loves us anyway. Truthfully, if we would all take a look into our hearts, we probably could not even deal with what we are covering.
It is so hard for me to fathom the size of the love GOD has for me. It seems to be a human affliction. I try so hard sometimes to put up a front of strength when in reality, I am falling apart inside. TRUTH!!! I am lonely, scared and sometimes I get really pissed off! Does this mean I am less “GODLY”? I heard it said once that it is in the darkest night that the stars shine the brightest. I believe that is how GOD works through us. It is when we are weak and in need, we are open – our hearts open and we can allow true GODLY strength to live within us.
I am broken. It is okay though. I can be broken and still receive GOD’S love. GOD loved me before I even was; that is so hard for me to imagine sometimes.
Truly, we would NOT want to see what is in each other’s hearts. It probably would scare the crap out of all of us. The reality is that THAT is our battle! I was baptized by water at 17, but let’s face it…. that actually started the real battle; the battle for my heart. BUT.. I now have JESUS protecting my heart against evil. WHY? Because that is why he came! He came so that not only would I be forgiven when I give into that evil in my heart BUT also to help me and protect me against it.
I am a child of GOD and I am broken!!! BUT HE still loves me so!!! Whomever believes that they are broken are open to receive GOD. Are you tied to believing that the best house, power of a job, how much money you have, or “how you have it together” brings you a security?? It is a LIE!! Those things play like idols in our lives, they consume our very heart and soul so that we are slaves. I get scared that I may not have the financial security I have today; or I will let those that depend on me down. I fight that idolatry each and every day, sometimes each and every moment. I have to repeat to myself that IT IS ALL ABOUT JESUS and not about me or anyone or anything else! Silly me, there is such freedom in that but how easy I fall back into “my pattern”.
I AM BROKEN….. JESUS LOVES ME SO! YES JESUS LOVES ME……….
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.