LORD, I am Tired

I understand that I am in a fight. I get it that this fight is not against human foes.
What I need to hold on to is this: no matter how insidious the darkness that comes against me may be; when I stand with JESUS; when I suit up with faith, when I wrap my head completely in truth and stand on the un-moveable and solid ground of the LORD- I am winning! Always!
Sure, there are the days and moments where life happens. Oh and some of those times are strewn with hardship and challenges. And spotted with failures and mistakes.
But we will emerge wiser and stronger. We learn to lean NOT on what we are seeing!
All around me are tough tasks, and those I love so much, suffering with health, financial downfalls, sadness and drug addiction.
Last night I watched as my son from China, Alex crumbled under the pressure he places on himself. And while he cried, I also wept inside. I know that exhaustion all too well!
I become tired, weak and my strength wavers.
What to do?
So, I prayed with Alex and then asked the LORD, where FATHER does my help come from? How LORD do I make it through? And my answer is clear.
I pray, but not the usual prayer. It is not bathed in the whys and the cries of self-pity. Instead, I resolve. Rest, if you will. But.... I rest in HIS will not mine!
GOD does have a plan that will prosper us, even though it may look like HE may not. I stand on the fact that GOD does know better! GOD only has our best in HIS hands.
So, that IS where our help comes from. That IS what we stand upon.
I know that things may not always look like the healing is happening or the chaos is coming to a peaceful end..... but we need to 
- believe! 
- trust!
- rest!
And therefore we can- no we will! have peace in our hearts and souls that all is well!
Thank YOU JESUS, amen ♥️