If you love me than you love the JESUS in me. Perhaps some think I come on too strong or am putting “too much” into my faith. This was recently brought to my attention by well-meaning but VERY wrong individuals. I will admit it did shake me a bit. Ironically, this occurred when I was in a weakened state. BUT GOD makes promises that HE KEEPS! One of those is that he will NEVER leave me or forsake me. This is said at least 10 times throughout the bible.
Not only did I struggle with what seemed to me as a very large issue over the last few weeks but I was attacked by doubt and started questioning my faith. AND then I had “well-meaning” and people I truly care about provide their scorn and opinions furthering my faith shake-up. BUT my GOD is faithful and during this time I was holding on by a thread BUT HE did not forsake me or leave me.
Will I be under spiritual attack again; I am human so I would answer : most likely!
Through all that I have gone through in this short amount of time, the thing that worried me more than anything was this:
If I am exhibiting worry, sadness and fear, does this mean GOD will be disappointed in me? In this world, generally when we do something unfavorable, people react, usually not great, sometimes putting a major dent into our self-esteem. People come from their agendas. WE ALL DO! It is called being human.
GOD only loves us and wants a relationship with us. There are no agendas. JESUS suffered all that we do and then took our doubts, fears, wrong-doings, angst, disobedience… well sin and carried it on the cross so that we CAN be human and still be in the favor of GOD. I am a schmuck!!! GOD never left me or forsakes me. He holds me up when I am weak. He forgives me when I screw up. I get my strength from GOD’s unending well.
I held on. Some many have thought…. Whoooooo Nellie…. She is losing it. I prayed, I worshipped, I lifted my hands to the ALMIGHTY, I cried to HIM, I read, I listened and did whatever I could to hold on to HE who keeps me going on.
My issues are there, and there may be more coming. But as long as I have my faith, I will be just fine. NO evil, no bad, no manipulation and no wrong intentions of others will make me falter. SO
IF YOU LOVE ME THAN YOU LOVE THE GOD IN ME!!!
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.