Remembering in Hebrew school I remember that learning the language of Hebrew was more important than the theology of why I was attending. As I read about the heroes of the Old Testament, I see a common theme. Abraham, Moses and the many others had faith at all times. Not just in the good times but in the trying times.
This has impacted me because I think it is easier for me to have faith in the trying times. It is in those difficult days when I tend to scream out for JESUS more. However, when things are going smoothly, I tend to go along with the flow and instead of focusing on GOD; HE becomes more of a fleeting thought. And then something happens that disrupts my calm and I run screaming and crying to my FATHER. And there he is with open arms welcoming me “in spite”. That is LOVE, pure unconditional love.
Am I the only one who feels how amazing that is? Abraham knew it…. He was ready to sacrifice his own son for the love of GOD. Moses led very whiny and ungrateful people into their land only to be left out of that glorious day; all in faith to GOD. AND me????? I freak out if I am short by the end of a pay-period, have a hard day at work or my illness acts up. I couldn’t do it, I could not sacrifice ANY of my kids. I admit it and I am sorry I fall short of that perfection…..BUT GOD LOVES ME ANYWAY!!!!!
GOD, how selfish I am and how sorry I am that I do not keep you in the most forefront of my brain, my heart and my life. I am so accepted by you no matter what! The world does not always accept me, my friends do not always accept me, my family does not always accept me BUT YOU LORD, always do.
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.