Recently I have been thinking a lot about conviction. My daughter said something that really impacted the way I felt. Sometimes I have a difficult time discerning if I am hearing GOD’s voice OR is what I am hearing, my own thoughts? She said this: IF you are questioning it, it probably is NOT coming from GOD. That was such an “aha!” moment from me. I heard that loud and clear. As they say, out of the mouth of babes.
I have heard many people say and I myself have used the term or one like it:” I felt that GOD laid on my heart” . . . Many people have many different gifts. I feel that for now, mine is through the use of written words and bringing together and supporting others in need. I can see GOD working in these things.
Interesting enough, my actual use of my voice and speaking to others about my love for JESUS is a weakness. GOD has been moving me out of my comfort zones pretty consistently lately. One of those areas is speaking. Those who know me well, know that I can sometimes feel pretty awkward in social situations. I am good in situations where there is light small talk and joking around. However, I do not fare well in more intimate settings where I need to use my voice. Between my attention span and the absence of a brain to mouth filter – it is pretty clear to me why this is so.
That being said, I will continue to pray and ask for GOD to lay heavy on my heart (convict me) what HE wants from me. My true desires ARE to please GOD. If this means I will move beyond my comfort, than I am ready. With GOD all things are possible, even self- imposed limitations.
DEAR JESUS, Thank YOU for understanding where I am now and loving me in spite and being patient with me in my growth. Forgive me when I lack the faith to move along in situations that are uncomfortable for me. Help me to seek YOUR WILL and FATHER to hold your hand joyfully in all situations! IN YOUR PRECIOUS NAME – JESUS CHRIST – AMEN!
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.