Butterflies, I truly love them BUT not when they are fluttering around my tummy all day. That is exactly what I feel during anxiety! We all feel it differently, some feel low and do not want to rise out of bed; some can’t eat; some stuff food to fend off the feelings; some drink; some use drugs and on the list goes. What is a person TO DO? Some things are just out of our control, what the heck am I saying here, ALL things technically are out of our control! Soooooooo, what is a person to do???
Obviously those who ever read this blog know I am going to say pray. But if I am to be honest, those butterflies were also fluttering around my already cluttered head. So my prayers were bare utterings. It was hard. It is hard. But in the Psalms, there is a great part I love and need to chant, this needs to be my prayer… Psalm 55:17:
EVENING, MORNING, AND NOON I CRY OUT IN DISTRESS, AND HE HEARS MY VOICE
Moods and emotions can carry us on a horrible roller coaster. I think that is when I need to cry out most. When I delude myself into believing that I actually have complete control so I take back the “power” and I see a mess unfold and then they start….. those darn butterflies, fluttering all around my head, my tummy… to the point of making me crazy and sick at the same time. It is in that deep despair that I cry to JESUS to stop my brain and let me focus on YOU. I have to literally chant this over and over again. And you know what, peace does come in the morning!
David pens a beautiful prayer in Psalm 30. I read it and relate to it. I can almost feel his emotions in that Psalm. I imagine the butterflies going on for this guy. Truly it puts my little problems into perspective but that is not my point. My point is that he FELT! David felt anxious, scared and sad. All through this Psalm, he cries to the LORD all the while exclaiming “YOU restore me” “Joy comes in the morning” “You have turned my mourning into dancing”
GOD does this for ALL of us! Even a schmuck like me. Will I have no problems? NO! Life is messy. But there is joy in the morning!!! GOD has got this and sometimes in the deep emotional pit, we have trouble seeing it. So in those moments, I simply utter, cry and pray to my ALMIGHTY because he love me and “HE HEARS MY VOICE” and peace will come! Hallelujah!!!
Do you have anxiety? Problems? Are you dealing with temptations? Reach out to me and we can talk or pray together. You are not alone! GOD DOES hear your despair. HE hears your groans. You just need to take the first step……… Are you ready? Are you ready to cross over to joy?
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.