I am a numbers girl. I am comfortable with numbers. They make sense. Either I work x number of hours and I make x number of dollars. Or, I have X number of customers purchasing and I earned x number in profit. When, I have x number of tweet followers or Facebook friends, I am liked.
Going further when I have a job, I make x number of dollars and I pay the bills.
So, it makes sense to me that if I do not have a job, I should freak out about how on earth am I going to pay the bills? If x is not coming in, how am I going to pay the electric bill?
First and foremost, I need to sing praises to the LORD! Through my faith, I am leaning NOT on my own understanding of “x” = “x”. What I am learning is the GOD provides! Show up, do what you can, lean on HIM and HE will provide.
My household leans completely on my hubby now (and GOD) for its tangibles. My husband is a hard-working contractor and I am a grateful and lucky wife. This is one of the best years he has had in business! Coincidence? I think not! Prayer, and faith – absolutely!!
Now, I do not mean that we both sit back and watch the dough flow in. That is childish. However, I am seeing when I am obedient to the LORD, in line with HIS plan for my life and a desire to put my trust and faith in HIM, everything falls into place! Yes, even the numbers!
Little by little I am focusing less on the numbers and more on my faith.
That is a miracle in itself. And, I am also slowly getting that what I see in front of my face, is not always the lead in to the disaster I imagine! GOD is already ahead of me! So, if my numbers are shaky, my Twitter followers decline, my Facebook friends depart, or my bank account balance is less than I would like; I hold onto the hand of JESUS! Together with the LORD in hand, there is nothing I cannot do! And that is even overcoming the numbers!
With that, I just have to thank the LORD for blessing after blessing. More, I need to look up to the LORD and say THANK YOU JESUS, I know this is all YOU! AMEN
I love technology! So, when I am able to get a new phone or computer I am so excited! I turn on my new technical joy and am excited and amazed! And then when something breaks or it doesn't go the way I want, the amazement and joy slides away! Before I know it, I am waving my fists and cursing the very gift that only moments earlier gave me such joy! How quickly I become un-amazed!
Yesterday, I heard the word "amazed" used in conjunction to our relationship with GOD! After all, it doesn't get more amazing! It did leave me wondering if I treat my amazement in the LORD similar to when I get a new computer? And I may! And I need to change it!
I clearly have seen times where I thought something was devastatingly impossible, still, a way was made. Yep, GOD! I was amazed!
Yet, how soon I forget! A tough situation falls in front of me and how quickly my amazement leaves. And even in my spoil - the LORD holds me, prods me along only once again to be amazed!
LORD, forgive me that I lose the wonder and amazement of YOU too quickly. Forgive me that I allow what surrounds me in the physical to lower my expectations of YOU. YOU tell us that if we have a tiny bit of faith in YOU, YOU WILL move mountains for us- I need to hold onto that. FATHER, instill in me that amazement at and in YOU at every moment and every step. Clear my eyes of the cannots and the impossibles and replace them with faith, hope, love and continuous amazement at who my FATHER is! Amen ❤️
Last night, I watched short videos of some of my grandkids. As I watched, this huge smile came across my face. I felt this overwhelming joy. I could not erase the big Cheshire grin.
This is how the LORD loves me. I need to keep it that simple. Sometimes I make it so complicated!
1 John 3 says: See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!"
It really is that simple, yet huge!! I am a child of GOD! HE desires a walk-in-hand, lift-me-up, one-on-one relationship with "just me." I don't have to perform in perfection. I don't have to be a particular way. GOD looks at me the way I look at my grandkids, swelling with love! Wow!
I am Deni, short for Denise. I grew up in a Jewish home, in a Jewish neighborhood and a Jewish family. In 3rd grade we moved. We moved to a mostly non-Jewish area.... that is where JESUS found me. I say found me because I yet had not acknowledged it, but would find out later.......by grace, HE HELD ME ALL ALONG, just a lil Jewish girl from Philly.